my journey

Everything looked fine on the outside, but inside, it was spiraling. My nervous system was in overdrive. I started realizing that the way I was living wasn’t sustainable—not emotionally, not energetically. This was the year I turned inward. Discovered Abraham hicks. toyed with Christianity and Spiritual awakening of everything is energy.

Read this raw post I shared when I first hooked up my water machine from December 3, 2018:

Earlier this year, I was caught off guard when anxiety reared its ugly head in a way that I never knew existed. I wasn't prepared to handle depersonalization and its overpowering burden. So l started to look closely at everything in my life trying to pinpoint what was causing this shift, these crazy thoughts, and making me feel the way I was. I looked at all that surrounded me, everything I was exposed to and what I participated in. It forced me to question everything from the food I was eating, the water I was drinking, my job and career aspirations, how I spend my free time, the purpose of life, reality, what I find fulfilling, what I don't, the person I want to be, the people I surround myself with, my attitude towards life and things bigger than myself. I made deep connections and broke through cognitive dissonance. I viewed certain things from a whole new perspective. I also realized quickly that nothing will change if all I do is complain. So I started investing in myself. Massages, acupuncture, seeking the help of a Psychologist, meditating, changed up who I followed on social media, switched to a plant based diet, started drinking high quality water, less garbage TV, more documentaries, bubble baths, reading books, writing, adventuring, singing, helping, researching, educating, expanding. I see the world so differently, I see the ugliness that I was ignorant to before, but I also see all the beauty more vividly. It's opened my eyes to how my thoughts and actions affect the world and the life I'm living.

Because of it my attitude and mindset have radically shifted. I'm paying more attention to the opportunities that present themselves, taking action, raising my vibe, expressing gratitude, believing in universal energy, even magic...using my voice, and making my dream life a reality. I want to do good. I'm more aware of my words, actions and beliefs and the effect they have. I didn't see it then, but I see it now. It took the scariest feelings and unsettling thoughts from some higher power for me to see my full potential. I don't have it all figured out, and I'm constantly evolving, but I'm reminded yet again that everything happens for a reason.

I discovered Kangen—and everything changed. It felt like a breadcrumb from the universe. This was my first true act of self-love that catapulted many others. I had no idea this decision would alter the course of my life though until almost 5 years later. I got caught up in the business side in an in-authentic salesy way. It didn’t feel aligned, and I felt so much resistance. Comparing myself to others in the business and their approach and lifestyle, that didn’t seem anything like mine. Met my now husband through the water though which was unexpected.

The world shut down. I moved countries. Got married. Everything I thought I knew was flipped on its head. But I clung to the rituals that grounded me—water, breath, movement, presence…until it didn’t anymore.

Depression crept in slowly but fiercely. I felt lost inside my own life. Got a neck tattoo. Nothing felt like mine anymore. I stopped creating. Stopped dreaming. Survival mode was real. I worked at lululemon to be downtown and meet like minded people, share the water (hooked up my machine in the break room) and rubbed shoulders with a woman who would later change my life. This was the best decision for my health and wellbeing and got me out and into a setting where I was playful and creative again.

Slowly, something stirred. I began peeling back the layers. Journaling. Crying in yoga. Getting still enough to hear myself again. I started seeing where I’d been living on autopilot. With my little helpers (medication) I found my footing again slowly.

New York City showed me how I didn’t want to feel like ever again. Living in NYC changed my life. I explored, drank way too many martinis and not enough water but somehow managed to feel good (because of all the walking and the energy there). I made mistakes, grew, ate delicious food, met cool people. I fell in love with life again there. We had zero counter space so I left my Kangen machine back home in South Carolina. Priorities were a bit outta whack one could say.

Healing wasn’t linear, but it was real. I began embodying my growth, not just understanding it. Rediscovery took on new meaning—this time with play, nourishment, sensuality. I stopped letting fear run the show. Moving back to South Carolina helped me slow down a bit to rediscover myself. Attracted the most amazing friend back into my life. I started drinking the water again, learning to control my energy and my thoughts, seeing the world for what it is.

Everything feels different now. I’m not forcing—I’m allowing. I’m not chasing—I’m magnetizing. I live softer, slower, more truthfully. Nourished, awake, and deeply myself. This is my year of effortless alignment. I didn’t plan to become someone who talks about water. Feeling more in control than I ever have. Ready to be ME and understanding that everything I desire is already on its way to me I just have to align with it. Ready to put myself first, live in alignment with who I really am. Suddenly, I was choosing water not just because it was “healthy”—but because it held a frequency that matched the life I was stepping into. Not selling the water, just sharing it. Because it’s authentic.